Can you believe one of my best friends that will never know it! Has been gone a year this April 5, 2007 She was so kind to me and my child Carolann! Carolann loved her like a second Mom! I still can not get over the death of my friend! I think this will be with me forever! I miss you! I hope Ashley, Emma and Faith are at peace this come 5th! May there Mommy blow sweet dreams and kiss to them from Heaven! Love and Hugs, Penny

Okay am not sure if I wrote this or not as am not check my blog am just writing! Well I had a Guinea Pig named (Baby) that passed on March 4, 2006 I was quit upset about this! But then out of the blue two days later one of my Guinea Trail-mix come a Mommy to two sweet little Guinea Pigs! Of course I still have Squirt and Peanut Butter Cup just hope Peanut was not Pregnant too!

I just got a job! Take care of Emma and Faith! I just hope I can be all the what! Carolann don't like the idea very well but she get use to it. Carolann all ready call them sisters! If you did not know all ready Emma and Faith mommy passed away just little over a month ago or so. So Emma take it realy hard! But I hope things will work out for them! Hugs, Penny

P.S. Just what to update

Carolann is loseing her first tooth! I feel so bad we had just made dinner and she took a bite of her food and told me and her father her tooth hurt. I was joke around say (she going to lose her first tooth) before look what was wroge and she open her mouth and "Be hold her tooth was loose" she start crying like crazy afther she finger out she would lose it! I felt so bad. I mean I never thought she would lose a tooth! Any adive for help a child thought this time?

Here the girls have a ice cream treat for the night! There be so silly Emma and Carolann!

Carolann "I am going to take a bit of ice cream."

Emma "It a funny photo."

Carolann has made a new friend "Emma" amost the first day we moved to Portland, Oregon. They met on December 10, 2005 and been what to go to one others house ever senes! We have even had to tell the girls the need a brack from one other! They both go to the same school this come Jan 2006 there both in Kindergarden and are both the same age! I can tell you that they may come best of friends if Carolann has her way!

Look who get so big! Alejandra is 2 months old and Carolann is 6 year old and 1 month they are grown up so big! Carolann love her new cousin! I must say I love this photo that I took of them it like perfect! I going to take it some time and get it print to a 8X10 and put it up on the wall it so cutie! Okay I know am brag! Please add your comments and let me know if you like this photo? Hugs, Penny

Look WHO spent Chirstmas in the Hosptial! "Yes my husband Mike" No he got out on Chirstmas day afther spend a few days there because he could not breath and his heart was be a bad heart. So I had a crazy Chirstmas this year! Hope everone eles was better then mine!

Alejandra Lee Garcia-Zeigler was born October 12, 2005 we went to see her today at the hosptial! She is so cutie and has so much hair! Just what to share it with all of you! Hugs, Penny

Here me with my old's Nef. and Nes. Charles Jr and Marie I met Marie for the first time on Aug 17, 2005 afther she had found her birth mother my half sister. She was adopt out at the age of 3 now she is 20 year old. I have 6 more Nef. and Nes. all togother on my family side. I have one Nef. and one Nes. on the way Oct. 2005 on my husband side. Just what to share my joy of met my sister first child.

I am so board!!!! I drop out of a few groups that I just did not what to belong to anymore. So I have less to do on the web, but I guess that okay more time spent with my little one if she dose not give me a head ache. I can't wait tell she back in school! This week we also found out my sister-in-law is having a girl she due 10-10-2005, that little one will be so spoiled! I can't wait to be an aunt again, but this time on my husband side; yea. I thought I never be an aunt again which is no fun. Anyways I am working right now on try to finger out what I am going to get the little one! There so much out there this days and so little money come in. I better get back to Charmed the TV show! Hugs, Penny

P.S. I got a new window accents from Avon it a Ladybug it so cutie.

Wow people; I just been have a bad weekend. I have been having the past two days an anxiety attack because of these ladies I was in groups in! Thank god I am out of there. If they read this I don’t really care!!! Anyways I was in these two groups, and these two groups were fighting or having a miss understanding of communication with one other so they put me in the middle of it, making me try to be massager for them. Of course am so gulabale to fall for it! Anyways Tuesday I had it. I had to leave the groups. For one I did not join to be massager girl for them or spy in there groups. On the other hand I was also yelled at by one of the owners of the groups because I made my own because I was tired of there problems, and them lying to me on both ends. I am still being attacked to this day and one even attacked my husband that was it! That blew me off so much. I am now if she bugs me again to call the cops for harassment charges, if she don’t stop bugging me and saying my husband does not work for the same company she work for. She seams to not like compution in any means. It doesn't help this lady is pregnant and has a problem there with her moods. I can’t handle people that think they are better then anyone else! Anyways I just had to vent about this. There still is driving me crazy, but I will get over it. I like be in other group on line that doesn’t treat me so bad.

I also went to the doctor today, and found out I need to go more often, and to see if I need medication for my anxiety attacks and help me in other areas. I guess I did not think how much this internet would cause me so much more problems that I don’t have all ready at home with hubby and Carolann. This is the first time I am going to say it, and probably the last. I need Help out of deal with life and the problems I am having with these ladies. I don’t know if I should keep in contact with them or take them off. Hopefully they leave me alone? I also now will not recommend these groups to anyone because of the problems, and the members in the group. I have never had this problem with any other group I have been in. O well!

Anyhow I start last week try to lose weight! Well I been walking almost ever day. Today is a bad day for me so I have to start all over again tomorrow; Tuesday! I hope one of my groups don’t see this they might be yelling at me today for what I did! HELP LOL

Okay I will stop ranting and raving about my life and the problems I’m having. No my luck this blog get me in to more trouble then I need but I don’t care! I need some were to vent!

Hugs, Penny

Wow I am so tired. I’m ready to fall a sleep! Anyways I been work almost all this afternoon on my webpage update change it around add new things and take away things like normal for my site. Durning this time I have been bug my 5 year old to clean her room. Carolann and Daddy have been fight over it the last week because she will not clean it up. So all day today or most of the afternoon I have gone in and change things around to help her keep her room clean. Still not clean yet but it was her bed time and she needs her rest. She was so upset that she knows she fight with Daddy again tomorrow morning and drive me crazy am ready to pull out my hair when they fight. She just now needs to put away her toys in to her toy boxes! I can’t wait tell she done because then I don’t have to hear all the crying, fighting and auger and make me mad at both my little one and my hubby. I some times wish they would get along. Think to self “Man I hope she and her Daddy are not this way when she a teenager!”

Anyways spring clean is not getting very far we going in to June in the next day and I still have yet got that table in are front room cleared off. I can’t wait to get it off. There’s days were am at it all day and going thought stuff and others wish it was all gone or put in a big box for me to go thought it latter. I also ask my Husband to take the box in the front hall way to Goodwill and he has yet to do that! Maybe I bug him tomorrow about it and then I can start a new box. On top of try to have my little one room clean and try to look like we moved in about 6 month ago. I been trying to get the bath room clean again, it needs a good floor mop, and a total cleaning. I try but I get so tired this days it no fun. It does not help at times when Mike all mad at me….. Anyways I should stop chatting and check my mail. Hugs, Penny Zeigler

Wow what a week this has been. We just got done from coming back from my father-in-law's funeral. It was my husband first day back to work from losing his father. I know that was hard for him. This was even harder on me because it was a double death. I lost one dad in 2002 and not even 3 years later I lost my other dad. Both died the same day May 4, just different years. Now how weird is that to lose family members that are both fathers to me on the same day. I did not even think about it tell my husband told me the day it was and it just hit like a rock in my stomach. I don't think I ever will forget what he said, but it not his fault that he told me I would have figured it out sooner or later!

Any way Carolann School is out tomorrow morning she be a Kindergarten this year come this fall. She is getting so big. She says she will miss her old school, she went to OCDC for 2 years. So she will not see a lot of the people she made friends with. But she had been a big girl about it. There have a party in her class room to say good bye. I know she miss her best friend Wrenna. They were buddies to the end.

I can't believe summer here for our family all ready. Its time to spring clean, now that she home and I don't have to worry about school. Now I can worry about get the place clean and her ready for school next year. I got to get rid of all her small clothes and her old shoes. On top of this week she is going camping this Saturday May 14, 2005 with her Daisy troop. She will have so much fun. This is her first Camp trip, and it a practice one for the next weekend one were she be in the meadows with Deer and other animals.

Okay got to go and put little one to bed. So she not tired for her last day of school.

Well I just finished up my laundry as washer it and dry it not folded it yet! Leave that up to hubby! Just had some yum fajitas, they turned out really good. O top of that are garbage disposal has a crake in it and we just found out it was probably leak for about a month but my daughter show it to me that the floor was all wet. So hubby checked it out. We left a message with the manager to come by and fix. But it probaly will not get done tell around Monday as this is Saturday!

We need to take the stuff that in the hall way to the goodwill some time soon. I also need to clear out the hall way to the bedrooms and put the stuff in Carolanns closet. We get new windows and slide glass door put in soon don’t know when yet. They are all ready starting work on the roof in our apartment’s area. So I need to get the place clean up more then normal lol. I rater be on the net surf or working my family tree and website.

Marianne talked to me yesterday about some stuff. We talk about an hour or so she was really tired she just had got of work. I was telling her about this cool place to write your journal down on the net and it free. She is going to check it out. She what me to come by some time to help her clean house again, lol. I still got to clean mine. I am on a good start though.

Well I better get going. Got to get back to clean house. God Bless and Take Care, Penny

One last post tonight before I go off to dream land....

I been work very hard on my new website and my Ladybug blog. I spent most of the day after Mike went to work on it. I still have a long ways to go. I did not realize how much I had at all my sites. I also had to do a lot of update because of some new rules on the web about graphics and adoptions. So if anyone reads this, please e-mail me if am I miss something that is suppose to be protected.

Also between all this I watch a movie with my daughter called "The Perfect Husband The Laci Peterson Story" It was all right not something I care to hear about all the time.

Just after my daughter went to bed and fell a sleep. The Elder from the Church came by. They said they could not come by tomorrow because it Stake Conference this week. So I had to change to next Saturday the 9 of April 2005 around the same time.

Well it is getting late and am get tired. Hugs and got Bless, Penny

I was just read my last entry in to my blog; it has been some time since I wrote in it. Well am out of that shelter now! Yeep! I have been living in are new apartment now for 2 and a half months. Still un packing, our front room look like a mess even after 2 months I hate having to much, and don’t know what to do with it. I have been lazy trying to get it done. But there are times I clean so much, that I get tired right after, and don’t what to finish until later. LOL,

Anyhow I am supposed to be going to Maryland and DC this August. I just love the idea I be able to go, and see other things that I did not get to see last time, and the whole family going this time! We are stay with a Cousin of my husbands. He so nice to let us stay at his place.

I have been playing with my old site, and get it over to my new site. It has been working okay for me, but front page like to give me a few problems, and I lose a few things so am hope I can fix them or someone can tell me about them if I missed something that I can’t see. E-mail me if you see something miss from my new site.

Carolann still in Head Start almost done with that. She finishes up in May and goes back to school in September as a kindergartener in the town we live in. She has grown so fast, she such a; big girl. She thinks she can do everything her self, and be miss boss. We put her in Daisy’s to help her learn that she is not all ways the leader or boss she needs to respect others. It takes her time; but she figures it out. She all ready has gone to the hospital and a meeting with the troop. Her next meet she is suposed to be say the girl scoot promise. We have been practicing with her so she is able to say it. She is doing so well. The girls she met are so great to her. She just fits perfectly with them. When she get her way lol.

Anyhow I must go now have to wake husband up to go to work. Take Care and God Bless, Penny Zeigler

It has been some time since I last up dated everyone on how I am doing!  My trip to Washington DC went very well. I got to see many sites, and got to see the Vietnam Memorial, and Desert Storm Wall.   If you never been to Washington DC; that I did not know till we got there it a lot of walking to see the sites there not close at all! However, for the most part it was amazing!

Anyhow right after the Washington DC we moved in to a shelter. That was around March 15, 2004 I been at the shelter for about 5 months now. It is not to bad now. Many of the people I do not get along with moved out. Witch is a good thing for me. Mike and I hope to be out of here when Carolann gets out of Head Start. That will be around April or May I think. Will be in are own Apartment again before for the new summer comes.  Getting her ready for Kindergarten in her new school area. We hope to have her at the same school as her sister Sharon. If that at all possible. I hope it is good for both them to be on the same school schedule.

Shelter life can be hard at times but it not too bad. I mean we have to do are chores to keep this place clean and tidy. We get free food and free cook meals M-F all year long for Dinner. We get some clothing and other items down stairs. It has been amazing to see what they can do, and cannot do here at the shelter.  Remember at times this place does need fixing up! We do have coach that needs to be thrown away because the have nails in them wood that stick out of the wall with Nails with them. Toys that are not fixed or we are not aloud to throughout them away because the shelter says we can not. However, the kids with the not so reasponciable parents let their kids get hurt off this thing. It drives me crazy. Yes and I have yelled at my daughter doing thing she is not suppose to be doing her at the shelter. We all cannot be perfect.

Anyhow e-mail me and let me know what you like me to talk about next maybe that will get me to post more often then I do now!

Hello everyone,

First off I have to let you know that am going to Washington, DC in Feb. right after Valetines day. I am so excited. I am going for many reasons, one because I love to travel, and this is once in a life time opportunity for me! The other is to help Head Start!!! Head start been my life right now beside the church.. Anyways the past 5 months. I been volunteering, and be there for the school, and they be there for me. I am very happy how thing have been going for me, and my child because she started going there.

Back to why am going, a group and I made up of other family's from around the 51 states. There is a Bill, S. 1940 that we are opposing. . It a big thing and am also doing this for future children. Even mine if I have anymore (by the way am try too). But back to the trip. I had already got a new pair of jeans, a new swim suit, kacky pants, jeans skirt, and a pink top for this trip. I will also be flying in a plane for only the second time in my life, totally cool. I just what to let everyone know.

I don't think I have told anyone but I been going to a psychologist for getting over the family problems my mother, bother and sister have done to me. The psychologist, my husband, my children, and the school has been helping live with out them, and to not let them hurt my family again or me! I am doing great with all this, and it a great thing for me. I do want to say that my brother Raymond has done nothing wrong, so he is still part of our family.

To a message I posted early on Tuesday, January 06, 2004, I was telling you about my friend that was losing her place on Jan 27, 2003 I helped her move her stuff to a storage unit so at lest her stuff she will kept, but what she has planed right now is to live from house to house until she finds a place to live again. She is trying to find a place that is down stairs, and really cheep. She has a long road to reality about getting her life together.

Wow, it has been two months since I have updated my journal.
I need to at lest try to up load a journal message at lest
once a month. It is be better then nothing at all. "Right" anyways.

Thanksgiving went well for the most part. We were fighting the flu
at that time, and also dealing with my husband being in the hospital.
Christmas went as well as it could have gone. We had to buy a car
right before Christmas, and that took most of our Santa money. We
got a 2002 Ford Focus, red. My daughters favorite color. New Years
came and went, without a bang.

On Jan 3, 2004 I got baptized in my church that I attend.
I love that I belong to such a great church. In attendance
to my baptism were, my cousin Deanna, her daughter, my school
friend Virginia, my husband, our daughter, and some of the
church members. The next Day I had the confirmation done in
front of the whole church. Now I am working on becoming a
visiting teacher. I was asked today while in the store.

Prase to the Lord we made it safe back from the store.
We are in the middle of a snow storm here.

Anyways I went to visit my friend Virginia yesterday to watch
a movie at her house, and one of her co-workers came over to ask
for some help. Her sister was trying to commit suicide. Lucky
she didn't, her sister was very upset, so we stayed with her
until her other sister came home from where the police took her.
Then today I came by with a box of food, as they said they did not
have any. That was the reason the sister wanted to commit suicide.
It made me feel really good that I could help someone else out.
I also got to make three new friends. It is nice to know that our
family is fitting into this little town.

I also what to let you know that I have other friend that just
lost her place again for the second time. I hope she finds a place
by January 25th. It sure is cold and if she dose not, she may
become homeless. So I pray she find a good home to live in.
Also will all of you do that too.

Thanks, Penny