Here me with my old's Nef. and Nes. Charles Jr and Marie I met Marie for the first time on Aug 17, 2005 afther she had found her birth mother my half sister. She was adopt out at the age of 3 now she is 20 year old. I have 6 more Nef. and Nes. all togother on my family side. I have one Nef. and one Nes. on the way Oct. 2005 on my husband side. Just what to share my joy of met my sister first child.

I am so board!!!! I drop out of a few groups that I just did not what to belong to anymore. So I have less to do on the web, but I guess that okay more time spent with my little one if she dose not give me a head ache. I can't wait tell she back in school! This week we also found out my sister-in-law is having a girl she due 10-10-2005, that little one will be so spoiled! I can't wait to be an aunt again, but this time on my husband side; yea. I thought I never be an aunt again which is no fun. Anyways I am working right now on try to finger out what I am going to get the little one! There so much out there this days and so little money come in. I better get back to Charmed the TV show! Hugs, Penny

P.S. I got a new window accents from Avon it a Ladybug it so cutie.

Wow people; I just been have a bad weekend. I have been having the past two days an anxiety attack because of these ladies I was in groups in! Thank god I am out of there. If they read this I don’t really care!!! Anyways I was in these two groups, and these two groups were fighting or having a miss understanding of communication with one other so they put me in the middle of it, making me try to be massager for them. Of course am so gulabale to fall for it! Anyways Tuesday I had it. I had to leave the groups. For one I did not join to be massager girl for them or spy in there groups. On the other hand I was also yelled at by one of the owners of the groups because I made my own because I was tired of there problems, and them lying to me on both ends. I am still being attacked to this day and one even attacked my husband that was it! That blew me off so much. I am now if she bugs me again to call the cops for harassment charges, if she don’t stop bugging me and saying my husband does not work for the same company she work for. She seams to not like compution in any means. It doesn't help this lady is pregnant and has a problem there with her moods. I can’t handle people that think they are better then anyone else! Anyways I just had to vent about this. There still is driving me crazy, but I will get over it. I like be in other group on line that doesn’t treat me so bad.

I also went to the doctor today, and found out I need to go more often, and to see if I need medication for my anxiety attacks and help me in other areas. I guess I did not think how much this internet would cause me so much more problems that I don’t have all ready at home with hubby and Carolann. This is the first time I am going to say it, and probably the last. I need Help out of deal with life and the problems I am having with these ladies. I don’t know if I should keep in contact with them or take them off. Hopefully they leave me alone? I also now will not recommend these groups to anyone because of the problems, and the members in the group. I have never had this problem with any other group I have been in. O well!

Anyhow I start last week try to lose weight! Well I been walking almost ever day. Today is a bad day for me so I have to start all over again tomorrow; Tuesday! I hope one of my groups don’t see this they might be yelling at me today for what I did! HELP LOL

Okay I will stop ranting and raving about my life and the problems I’m having. No my luck this blog get me in to more trouble then I need but I don’t care! I need some were to vent!

Hugs, Penny

Wow I am so tired. I’m ready to fall a sleep! Anyways I been work almost all this afternoon on my webpage update change it around add new things and take away things like normal for my site. Durning this time I have been bug my 5 year old to clean her room. Carolann and Daddy have been fight over it the last week because she will not clean it up. So all day today or most of the afternoon I have gone in and change things around to help her keep her room clean. Still not clean yet but it was her bed time and she needs her rest. She was so upset that she knows she fight with Daddy again tomorrow morning and drive me crazy am ready to pull out my hair when they fight. She just now needs to put away her toys in to her toy boxes! I can’t wait tell she done because then I don’t have to hear all the crying, fighting and auger and make me mad at both my little one and my hubby. I some times wish they would get along. Think to self “Man I hope she and her Daddy are not this way when she a teenager!”

Anyways spring clean is not getting very far we going in to June in the next day and I still have yet got that table in are front room cleared off. I can’t wait to get it off. There’s days were am at it all day and going thought stuff and others wish it was all gone or put in a big box for me to go thought it latter. I also ask my Husband to take the box in the front hall way to Goodwill and he has yet to do that! Maybe I bug him tomorrow about it and then I can start a new box. On top of try to have my little one room clean and try to look like we moved in about 6 month ago. I been trying to get the bath room clean again, it needs a good floor mop, and a total cleaning. I try but I get so tired this days it no fun. It does not help at times when Mike all mad at me….. Anyways I should stop chatting and check my mail. Hugs, Penny Zeigler

Wow what a week this has been. We just got done from coming back from my father-in-law's funeral. It was my husband first day back to work from losing his father. I know that was hard for him. This was even harder on me because it was a double death. I lost one dad in 2002 and not even 3 years later I lost my other dad. Both died the same day May 4, just different years. Now how weird is that to lose family members that are both fathers to me on the same day. I did not even think about it tell my husband told me the day it was and it just hit like a rock in my stomach. I don't think I ever will forget what he said, but it not his fault that he told me I would have figured it out sooner or later!

Any way Carolann School is out tomorrow morning she be a Kindergarten this year come this fall. She is getting so big. She says she will miss her old school, she went to OCDC for 2 years. So she will not see a lot of the people she made friends with. But she had been a big girl about it. There have a party in her class room to say good bye. I know she miss her best friend Wrenna. They were buddies to the end.

I can't believe summer here for our family all ready. Its time to spring clean, now that she home and I don't have to worry about school. Now I can worry about get the place clean and her ready for school next year. I got to get rid of all her small clothes and her old shoes. On top of this week she is going camping this Saturday May 14, 2005 with her Daisy troop. She will have so much fun. This is her first Camp trip, and it a practice one for the next weekend one were she be in the meadows with Deer and other animals.

Okay got to go and put little one to bed. So she not tired for her last day of school.

Well I just finished up my laundry as washer it and dry it not folded it yet! Leave that up to hubby! Just had some yum fajitas, they turned out really good. O top of that are garbage disposal has a crake in it and we just found out it was probably leak for about a month but my daughter show it to me that the floor was all wet. So hubby checked it out. We left a message with the manager to come by and fix. But it probaly will not get done tell around Monday as this is Saturday!

We need to take the stuff that in the hall way to the goodwill some time soon. I also need to clear out the hall way to the bedrooms and put the stuff in Carolanns closet. We get new windows and slide glass door put in soon don’t know when yet. They are all ready starting work on the roof in our apartment’s area. So I need to get the place clean up more then normal lol. I rater be on the net surf or working my family tree and website.

Marianne talked to me yesterday about some stuff. We talk about an hour or so she was really tired she just had got of work. I was telling her about this cool place to write your journal down on the net and it free. She is going to check it out. She what me to come by some time to help her clean house again, lol. I still got to clean mine. I am on a good start though.

Well I better get going. Got to get back to clean house. God Bless and Take Care, Penny

One last post tonight before I go off to dream land....

I been work very hard on my new website and my Ladybug blog. I spent most of the day after Mike went to work on it. I still have a long ways to go. I did not realize how much I had at all my sites. I also had to do a lot of update because of some new rules on the web about graphics and adoptions. So if anyone reads this, please e-mail me if am I miss something that is suppose to be protected.

Also between all this I watch a movie with my daughter called "The Perfect Husband The Laci Peterson Story" It was all right not something I care to hear about all the time.

Just after my daughter went to bed and fell a sleep. The Elder from the Church came by. They said they could not come by tomorrow because it Stake Conference this week. So I had to change to next Saturday the 9 of April 2005 around the same time.

Well it is getting late and am get tired. Hugs and got Bless, Penny

I was just read my last entry in to my blog; it has been some time since I wrote in it. Well am out of that shelter now! Yeep! I have been living in are new apartment now for 2 and a half months. Still un packing, our front room look like a mess even after 2 months I hate having to much, and don’t know what to do with it. I have been lazy trying to get it done. But there are times I clean so much, that I get tired right after, and don’t what to finish until later. LOL,

Anyhow I am supposed to be going to Maryland and DC this August. I just love the idea I be able to go, and see other things that I did not get to see last time, and the whole family going this time! We are stay with a Cousin of my husbands. He so nice to let us stay at his place.

I have been playing with my old site, and get it over to my new site. It has been working okay for me, but front page like to give me a few problems, and I lose a few things so am hope I can fix them or someone can tell me about them if I missed something that I can’t see. E-mail me if you see something miss from my new site.

Carolann still in Head Start almost done with that. She finishes up in May and goes back to school in September as a kindergartener in the town we live in. She has grown so fast, she such a; big girl. She thinks she can do everything her self, and be miss boss. We put her in Daisy’s to help her learn that she is not all ways the leader or boss she needs to respect others. It takes her time; but she figures it out. She all ready has gone to the hospital and a meeting with the troop. Her next meet she is suposed to be say the girl scoot promise. We have been practicing with her so she is able to say it. She is doing so well. The girls she met are so great to her. She just fits perfectly with them. When she get her way lol.

Anyhow I must go now have to wake husband up to go to work. Take Care and God Bless, Penny Zeigler

It has been some time since I last up dated everyone on how I am doing!  My trip to Washington DC went very well. I got to see many sites, and got to see the Vietnam Memorial, and Desert Storm Wall.   If you never been to Washington DC; that I did not know till we got there it a lot of walking to see the sites there not close at all! However, for the most part it was amazing!

Anyhow right after the Washington DC we moved in to a shelter. That was around March 15, 2004 I been at the shelter for about 5 months now. It is not to bad now. Many of the people I do not get along with moved out. Witch is a good thing for me. Mike and I hope to be out of here when Carolann gets out of Head Start. That will be around April or May I think. Will be in are own Apartment again before for the new summer comes.  Getting her ready for Kindergarten in her new school area. We hope to have her at the same school as her sister Sharon. If that at all possible. I hope it is good for both them to be on the same school schedule.

Shelter life can be hard at times but it not too bad. I mean we have to do are chores to keep this place clean and tidy. We get free food and free cook meals M-F all year long for Dinner. We get some clothing and other items down stairs. It has been amazing to see what they can do, and cannot do here at the shelter.  Remember at times this place does need fixing up! We do have coach that needs to be thrown away because the have nails in them wood that stick out of the wall with Nails with them. Toys that are not fixed or we are not aloud to throughout them away because the shelter says we can not. However, the kids with the not so reasponciable parents let their kids get hurt off this thing. It drives me crazy. Yes and I have yelled at my daughter doing thing she is not suppose to be doing her at the shelter. We all cannot be perfect.

Anyhow e-mail me and let me know what you like me to talk about next maybe that will get me to post more often then I do now!

Hello everyone,

First off I have to let you know that am going to Washington, DC in Feb. right after Valetines day. I am so excited. I am going for many reasons, one because I love to travel, and this is once in a life time opportunity for me! The other is to help Head Start!!! Head start been my life right now beside the church.. Anyways the past 5 months. I been volunteering, and be there for the school, and they be there for me. I am very happy how thing have been going for me, and my child because she started going there.

Back to why am going, a group and I made up of other family's from around the 51 states. There is a Bill, S. 1940 that we are opposing. . It a big thing and am also doing this for future children. Even mine if I have anymore (by the way am try too). But back to the trip. I had already got a new pair of jeans, a new swim suit, kacky pants, jeans skirt, and a pink top for this trip. I will also be flying in a plane for only the second time in my life, totally cool. I just what to let everyone know.

I don't think I have told anyone but I been going to a psychologist for getting over the family problems my mother, bother and sister have done to me. The psychologist, my husband, my children, and the school has been helping live with out them, and to not let them hurt my family again or me! I am doing great with all this, and it a great thing for me. I do want to say that my brother Raymond has done nothing wrong, so he is still part of our family.

To a message I posted early on Tuesday, January 06, 2004, I was telling you about my friend that was losing her place on Jan 27, 2003 I helped her move her stuff to a storage unit so at lest her stuff she will kept, but what she has planed right now is to live from house to house until she finds a place to live again. She is trying to find a place that is down stairs, and really cheep. She has a long road to reality about getting her life together.

Wow, it has been two months since I have updated my journal.
I need to at lest try to up load a journal message at lest
once a month. It is be better then nothing at all. "Right" anyways.

Thanksgiving went well for the most part. We were fighting the flu
at that time, and also dealing with my husband being in the hospital.
Christmas went as well as it could have gone. We had to buy a car
right before Christmas, and that took most of our Santa money. We
got a 2002 Ford Focus, red. My daughters favorite color. New Years
came and went, without a bang.

On Jan 3, 2004 I got baptized in my church that I attend.
I love that I belong to such a great church. In attendance
to my baptism were, my cousin Deanna, her daughter, my school
friend Virginia, my husband, our daughter, and some of the
church members. The next Day I had the confirmation done in
front of the whole church. Now I am working on becoming a
visiting teacher. I was asked today while in the store.

Prase to the Lord we made it safe back from the store.
We are in the middle of a snow storm here.

Anyways I went to visit my friend Virginia yesterday to watch
a movie at her house, and one of her co-workers came over to ask
for some help. Her sister was trying to commit suicide. Lucky
she didn't, her sister was very upset, so we stayed with her
until her other sister came home from where the police took her.
Then today I came by with a box of food, as they said they did not
have any. That was the reason the sister wanted to commit suicide.
It made me feel really good that I could help someone else out.
I also got to make three new friends. It is nice to know that our
family is fitting into this little town.

I also what to let you know that I have other friend that just
lost her place again for the second time. I hope she finds a place
by January 25th. It sure is cold and if she dose not, she may
become homeless. So I pray she find a good home to live in.
Also will all of you do that too.

Thanks, Penny

Gees I can't believe it is November my daughter Carolann just turned 4 a few days ago. My other step child is going to be 8 this come December of 2003. She getting very big and Smart she in the 2 grade. Carolann started school in September 23, 2003 and has been doing awesome at her head start. I am also parent representive to her class room. That a big job for me. I been going to her school ever day unless am sick or had a appointment. So I really get to see her in the class room. I just wish I could get to my step daughter's class room to see how she doing in her class, but her dad get to go twice a week so he get to do it for me. Also both girls got there photo take recently Carolann we took her to Salem to get hers done and my step daughter got her done at her school. I been told Carolann will have class photo done more closer to the end of the year. So that will be great to see her grow from when she start school to the end of school year.

Anyways I been going to this parent class meet ever month and we just went to one yesterday. We learn how to cook Pineapple upside down cake. It was so good.

Here the recipe:

2 cups of flour

2 cups of sugar

1 cups of butter

1 teaspoon Baking soda

1/4 teaspoon salt

2 cans of pineapple rings (keep the juice)

1-2 cups brown sugar

1/4 cup butter

2 eggs

1. Pre-Heat the oven to 350 degrees

2. Melt 1/4 cup of butter and pour it into a 13 by 9 inch cake pan.

3. Spread the brown sugar evenly over the butter.

4. place the pineapple rings on top of the brown sugar.

5. In a different bowl sift the sugar and flower

6. Melt 1 cup of butter and add it to the bowl with the flour and sugar.

7. To this, add the eggs, baking soda, pineapple juice and salt.

8. Stir until completely mixed,

9. Pour the batter into the cake pan,

10. Bake for 35 to 45 minutes or until a knife comes out clean.

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I will also put in Spanish.

Pastel de Pina Volteado

2 tazas de harina

2 tazas de azucar

1 taza de mantequilla

1 cucharadita de carbonato

1/4 cucharadita de sal

2 latas de anillos de pina (guarda el jugo de la pina de la lata)

1-2 tazas de azucar morena

1/4 taza de mantequilla

2 huevos

1. Calentar el horno a 350 grados.

2. Derretir 1/4 taza de mantequilla y echarla a una cacerola para cocinar pasteles de tamano 13 por 9 pulgadas.

3. Polnle una capa de azucar moreno encima de la mantequilla.

4. Encima del azucar, pon los anillos de pina

5. En una spoera pon la harina y azucar

6. Derretir 1 taza de mantequilla y echarla a la harina y azucar.

7. Agregue los huevos, el carbonato, el jugo de la pina, y sal.

8. Batir todo hasta que sea completamente mezclado

9. Echa la masa a la cacerola.

10. Hornearlo por 35 a 45 minutos o hasta que un cuchillo metido sale limpio.

(Sorry if I miss any spelling arres in the spanish part.)

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I also learn yestday how to make playdo and learned about stress. I realy enjoyed this class as it teaches me more about myself and how to take better care of our childern in the long run.

I realy ot to be going. I have to go pick up my step child around 11:00AM and I still have to get dress. The family take her to CM2 Childeren's museum in Portland, Oregon it be lots of fun for both the girls. Take care and I hope you all try make pineapple upside down cake later on. Bye. Penny

Gess this is not such a good day for me. I start not feel good after dinner last night. My tummy hurt so bad. I think the fish made me sick last night. Still a little sick this morring. Have more of a headache then any thing eles. Dishes and clean up the front room still has to be done. I still even have to have lunch and get dressed for the day. I hope Carolann will be good for the day. I just not in the mood today to be pissed off. I better be going I need to get to that stuff and stop messing around on the web.

I though I should update my journal again! Today Mike had to go to Jury duty at 8am this morring. Last night I hung most of my photos up on the wall of my aprtment, with my family. It is starting to look like a home. We had got our table, sofa and my boul chair out of storage. Thanks to my mother for help bring it over. For dinner tonight we will be having fish and tater tarts and making Blackberry Cobbler I let you know how that turns out. I also made some yummy apple bread yesterday, it turn out good. Here the recipe if anyone whats to try it and let me know if you like it please tag me or gustbook me all about it.

Apple Bread

3 eggs
2 cup surgar
1 cup of oil
3 cup of sredded apples
3 tsp vanilla
1/4 tsp baking powder
3 cup of flour
1 tsp baking soda
1 tsp salt (opl)
3 tsp cinnamon

Beat eggs untill lemon colored add surgar and oil.
Beat untill well blended. Add remaing stuff beat untill well blended.
350 for 45 mins or longer teb on your oven.
This will make 2 loafs of apple bread.


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I got to get going I have to finsh my laundry and go get more stuff out of storge and get home to make dinner tonight.

We just got back from seeing someone about getting money for rent, they gave us $200.00 plus Mike mom is sending us some money today to us for rent. So Mike going to send off $250.00 to Bob. That will get us hopefully get back on track.

We also around the same time took back a stupid movie we rented think it would be good. It was called Real Women with Curves. I think it end just wrong. I don't think I tell anyone about this movie.

Anyhow I better be going because I need to get Carolann dressed for the day. Right now she working on her breakfast and watching her movie Dragon Tales.

Were to start out. It has been quite awile since I have updated my jurnal. Alot has happed since June 5, 2003.

First of all my in-law's are still in their trailer. It seams like the house is taking forever to get done. They also just invited us to have Thanksgiving with them. I hope it will be a good holiday with them.

July 7 we moved in to are new place. We now live a small town called Mt. Angel. It is a 3 bed room apartment. The bath room is very small and so is the kitchen. The rent is very high for us. I hope we be able to move in to other place cheeper then $575.00 a month. In about a year or the sec 8 comes soon, one or the other will help. Mike don't like the idea of moving, and I don't either, but that is sometimes how life is.

Then a few days ago I found out why my sister was in jail, that breaks my heart. It don't help to know that my half bother and my half sister are in jail. They both deserve what the did. My other bother Raymond, I have't seen for over a month, but drive passing him when we were in the same town in Woodburn. Very sad as my dauther Carolann has not seen
any family but Grandma Briggs for quit some time, on my side of the family.

Monday we just got a 72 hour notice about were we live. We going to Family Resorce center this morring to hopefuly help pay our rent. Life been crazy. Then after that Mike has to work tonight, and I still have a lot of cleaning to do around the house. I also still got to find them dame nails to hang up the photos of my family and children, most my child and us.

Now it is August, I am working on finding out if Carolann is going to be start school in
September we just got back on WIC, which helps with food in the house. We have to take a class next Wednesday to get money for Saturday market. The next day on Aug. 14, 2003
I have a vocational rehab apointment at one PM, I hope that will turn out okay.

Well it been awhile seen I last up dated my Blog! How time flies when we are having fun. Lots have been happening since the last up date. My mother and father in law moved to Florence, Oregon we just visited them. There house is still not finished yet. They have been living in a trailer for the past 3 months, I would hate it. When we visited them, they took us out on a dune buggy ride over the sand duns. Carolann sleped the whole ride, and it was a 1-hour and a 16-minute ride. Totally awesome but hated that I got the wind burned on my face. Mike’s parents are getting dune buggies them self after they move in to the house and sell the trailer off. That will be so cool, Carolann will love it. Anyhow, Two month ago we try to get on housing. We just see the movie, and we had our first appointment this last Tuesday. Wait to hear now what next to happens.

Qustion I had to send to PPFF (Penguin pals & Froggie Friends). I hope people don't go by this and say well she not good anofe for us. That stuip. I hope this is just a fun way to get to know someone. So don't take some of this stuff to heart. I hope you understand. Hugs, Penny



1. Name: Penny Ann Zeigler
2. Born: (date and location) 9-7-1979 Salem, Oregon
3. I now live in: Woodburn, Oregon
4. married: 3-4-2000
5. Kids: Carolann Zeigler Stepchild Sharon Bales-Zeigler
6. Pets: Cat named Ziggy
7. Hair Color: Brown
8. Eye Color: Hazel Green
9. Glasses: Nope don’t were Glasses
10. Height: 5’3
11. Weight: To Much not saying
12. If one of your friends had to describe you they would say: Good hearted, always there for you
13. Favorite hobbies: Family Tree
14. Morning/noon/night person: Night
15. Favorite drink is: Pop
16. Favorite TV show: Charmed
17. Best characteristics: Loving mother
18. Most annoying or bad habit: Chew on towels
19. Most embarrassing moment: When my husband proposed to me
20. My favorite graphics are: fairies, ladybugs
21. Pet peeves: Some one that judges me for my spelling
22. Favorite foods: Pizza, strawberrys, Italian, mexican
23. Car you drive: Chev. Corisica
24. Favorite color: Forest Green
25. Number the following in order of importance to you...9 fashionable and/or expensive clothes, 1 spending time with family, 2 spending time with friends, 4 quality of health, 5 time for hobbies, 7 enjoyable job, 8 amount of money, 3 loving pets, 6 good weather
26. On vacation, I like to go... lots of rides
27. Dream vacation: Disney land
28. If I could choose a new career choice or my dream career, it would be? being a teacher
29. Favorite Font: 12
30. Favorite html code: < /br >, < br >
31. Type of computer: Intel
32. Favorite free programs: Any
33. Dial up or DSL. cable: dial up
34. If you had to choose a stuffed animal what would it be: ladybug
35. Favorite soap: Roses
36. Favorite perfume: Honey from Avon
37. Favorite lotion: roses
38. One of my favorite smells is: baby powder
39. Smells that make me sick: puke
40. Snakes, spiders, and creepy crawly things make me..... screem
41. I love to wake up to: pancakes
42. Don't mess with me when: I am on my period
43. People or I'd describe my temper as............. ok
44. When I'm sick: cranky
45. Do I tease people, and if so, what on? not at all
46. Favorite music: country
47. Do you cook and why? no, my husband dose
48. Do you like to clean house and why?: no
49. Shopping in person or on-line? in person
50. Favorite store locally: K-mart
51. Favorite store on-line: Wal-mart
52. On-line groups you are a member of: 6 groups
53. Favorite websites: my daughters
54. Favorite sport: baseball
55. Favorite teams: sf giants
56. If someone came in the way of you and your favorite game, you would: depends on the person
57. Cell phone, letter or telephone? Any special situations for each. letter, or telephone
58. When I open a newspaper, the first section I read is: obits.
59. Favorite comic strip: garfield
60. Favorite magazine: step family
61. Favorite restaurant: Olive garden
62. People describe me as always prompt, a few minutes late, early, or it varies greatly. varies greatly
63. Assuming there is a major disaster...you have one minute to choose what to take with you...it has to be something that you can carry on foot...you would take? my child
64. When my computer messes up or other things in my life do not go as planned, I usually: get frusterated
65. When someone takes the last piece of toilet paper which leaves you with none, you ... Is your reaction different in a public bathroom? just grab another one
66. When looking at the stars at night, what do you think about? My life
67. What do you consider as the event(s) that changed your life or made the greatest impact upon it? my child and meeting my husband
68. Other comments about yourself that have been missed that are unique or different: I can not write or spell very well, or express myself very well

Dear Friends and Family,

I hope you are doing well. I am doing great. Been loving this week my husband took a week off to be with me thou out the weekend as it was also are annivsery this week. We went out to eat at Chaves were my husband proposed to me 4 years ago. We been married now for 3 years, that’s great for us to be together that long. He was so sweet he got me some beautiful flowers and an Eyore towel. I got him SimCity 4 and a stuffed ladybug. The ladybug represents my husband loves for me. He has called me ladybug ever sence we started dating. He has not stopped and probably will not. My nickname for him is knucklehead and bubble butt as I love his butt. He also makes me fall for him when he gives me that look with his baby blue eyes.

Anyhow the rest of the week we took Carolann to swimming class my husband sees his daughter at school and we took her also to the Oregon Zoo. That was fun. I took some good photos, hope to post them. Don’t know when I have them scan yet!

Also on an update we also seen my in-law’s before they moved to other town by the coast. It went very well. There did seam to be any feel fly around. Or at lest I did not see. But who knows I could hear about some thing later down the road about it.

My mother-in-law is the most hurt full person alive. :(( She can't seam to understand that I am not perfect.
She just love to make me so upset. She does not seam to understand I am just trying my best for my child
and myself. I never had anyone just brake me down so bad. This are kind of people I stay away from
but I can't and her daughter Cindy is the same way. The just like or love to push my button on things I
can not change. The don't even know my daughter has the same thing. That what make me so upset
as I can't fix her and I love her just the way she is. But they can't even from the date she was born. I thought
this was all done and over with. No but they bring it back up. I just wish this would all stop.

P.S. I can't say the are both bad. I mean the do try for Carolann the best the can. Some good thing the have done after
me tell my husband that it hurt me and Carolann if the don't. They finley do do it. Like Carol my mother-in-law
has come to all Carolann birthdays, and been to two Christmas, and came to the birth that the came to us in send of us
come to them all the time push for the to exp me and Carolann there blood grandchild. Cindy on the other hand has come
to see Carolann at her birth but that it. No Christmas or Birthdays or even a HI I can baby sit or why don't you bring over
Carolann. I mean Cindy and me "Penny" all was had a hard time connect. But that should not stop her from call or ask
about Carolann. They both can work with me and my daughter to get a better family relationship with us.

My husband just called say Carol would call to say sorry for what she did to me tonight about get all bent out of shape about
my spelling. She called and it was sort of weird talk to her. But she did say sorry and I told her it hurt my feeling. Then she
ask if me and Mike were okay I told her "Yea I think so". It just bug me she does this and I bet it was hard for her to do it.